Remember how things were so darn simple back then? All we had to do was abide by the rules. rules at school, rules at home, rules of the games our friends brought over in the evening post the grueling homework session. rules. we knew what they were but never tried rationalizing with them. yes. that is what made life simple and fun. And not just for us, even for our parents. I still hear my mother say, after one of our daily grind of arguments,''you were so simple to deal with when all you did was run around the house on your walker. you used to race and fall and get injured. I was worried sick all the time for you, but it was way better than now''.
Life was simple when I was young. I was happy. happy being fat. like I mentioned in my first post 'about me', I loved eating! I still do now but, it is different. I love eating but I hate that it makes me work more. every bite of that chocolate/cake/ice cream/ gulab jamun (aah! wipe that drool off *wink*) all I can think of is the extra sweat I have to shed the next day. not the taste or the heavenly feeling of playing with my sweet tooth, but the sweat. I was a healthy kid back in time. healthy and happy. I am fit now, yes very much but, not happy. because I do not enjoy my food anymore. I am scared. scared of putting back on what I lost in all those years. I am scared because I am rationalizing my fear. and when you do, when you paint that not-so-rosy reality picture, it's scary.
''You must do this. if not for yourself then you MUST do it for us, your FAMILY. what wrong have we done to you?'' ring a bell? if it does, then stay tuned.
You and I have a lot more in common than this ''perfect'' world
Very crisp and to the point...
ReplyDeleteI am scared of putting back on what I lost in all those years....nice
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ReplyDeletethank you so much saurabh